Woooo! I can't take it!
I am so saddened by my lack of discipline and better yet the lack of commitment to myself, my life, my future. I am on a terror-filled emotional roller coaster and these loopty-loops got me feeling nervous and I reach for soda, soda and more soda. I can't shake it and my addictions are taking over to ease with my current circumstances.
Fatty Watty 2 by 4
Can't fit through the living room door
So she did it on the floor
Fatty Watty 2 by 4
That is where I am on my way too! I am incapable of having self control, self awareness and it appears that I am incapable of exhibiting self-love! I am killing myself and I am taking years off my life with all this extra flubber I am carrying. My knees hurt so bad I hate to stand up sometimes and I am still in my twenties. I don't think that I can bear the thirties, forties or fifties even if I make it that far without keeling over from a heart attack!
I work best under consistency. I know what to expect and you know what to expect, when that does not happen I get emotional and I eat! Surprisingly, I don't think that it is stress. I don't feel any pressure from my school time and work time. I look in the mirror everyday and I see my tire around the middle growing from size 18 to size 22 and those are some big tires! I believe my problem stems from heart break, neglect, and insecurity.
Fatfully Yours,
Drea
03/05/2009
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I definitely feel your pain, Dre. This is a journey that we'll be on forever. Most days I feel focused and ready to get the remaining weight off...other days, I'm holding on for dear life and praying that I never return to my former 400+ lb self. Truly a rollercoaster.
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